It's been almost a year since Keith's surgery and it seems like a dream rather than reality. Keith has been forced to face unbearable feelings, and has done it with grace and dignity. Fear has been a constant companion -- sometimes a deep fear, at other times an unease that hovers over every daily activity.
The difficulty in getting his stomach to operate correctly has been challenging. It is very difficult to change a lifetime of eating habits. What was once a comforting and enjoyable part of life (enjoying a meal) has now often become a time of discomfort and nervousness.
The recent CT scan has brought back to light the fear that we try to push into the background. Will it come back? That is the question lurking in the darkness.
I say NO. It won't come back. Keith has done this well because there is a purpose to his life and our lives together as a couple. He has much left to do in this world. Soon-to-be-born Emily needs her grandpa to help her grow up. All of the grandchildren and children need Keith to be a part of their lives -- he is the glue that cements the family together. He is the "push over" who always gives in because he loves them.
Cancer will not take the man I love -- he is strong and determined. A Cancervivor if ever there was one.
Tuesday, December 9, 2008
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